I quit my job in February of 2011. I cannot believe that I haven’t worked in 3 years! In some ways it seems like just yesterday that I became a stay-at-home mom, but in others I feel so far removed from the workforce that it seems I was never really there.
But when did I lose my identity? When did I become “just a mom”? It wasn’t when I quit working. The twins were six months old then, I was four months into the master’s program, and I was preparing for a cross-country move to Texas. I was busy, very busy. When I got to Texas, I immediately got involved with two non-profit mom’s groups. I know that being on the board of a mom’s group isn’t saving the world, but it gave me a sense of purpose other than cooking, cleaning, and wiping butts. I was helping my children and my friends’ children to learn and play and enjoy all the wonderful things that our area had to offer. It kept me busy, I made great friends, and I felt like I was doing something productive. I finished my master’s and got more involved in various things. I interacted with living, breathing people who were over the age of five on a daily basis.
I don’t think it was until we moved here that I really felt the effects of being a stay-at-home mom. The times when you go more than 24 hours without speaking a word to anyone other than your children. The weeks that go by and you don’t leave the house for anything but the grocery store and picking up your kid at school. The never ending laundry, dishes, and vacuuming. The feeling that at this moment you are not contributing one single thing to society. It can be stressful and maddening.
Does anyone else feel this way? Maybe I’m just crazy:) I’m sure that I will be wishing for the days when I didn’t have to leave the house once I enter the corporate world! In the meantime, I’ll hug my kids tight and teach them everything I can. Because although it isn’t always fulfilling, it is the most important job in the world.
Until our next adventure,